Running Away vs Escaping

Do you ever feel like the actions you are taking the choices you’re making aren’t yours? When you’re in a moment of anxiety or depression, do you ever feel like something’s happening to you and something is being done, but it’s not coming from you. Not in the sense where you’re possessed or someone has taken over your body, it’s a feeling of unconsciousness, I know what’s happening, and I know in this moment this isn’t me, this isn’t the person I want to be, and this isn’t the person I truly know I am. You know it’s a bad idea, it’s the wrong thing to say, while you are doing it. Do you ever feel like every single person who ever opens their mouth to you is lying, about anything and everything? It feels like someone has a reduced you to less of a person, to the point where nothing they say to you has to be real. The closest feeling comparable would be being gaslit. Is that on you? Or is that on the people around you? Is it a reflection on who you are or who you surround yourself with, is it both? When your mental state is being affected is there a difference between running away and escaping? Running away, has a negative connotation that you do not want to deal with the issue at hand; therefore, you run away. However, escaping has a connotation of needing to leave. So, when you are in a state of emotional unwell, and you constantly are in a feeling of running away is this escaping or not dealing with the problem at hand? Sometimes, you need to leave to have the space to deal emotionally.